Paint

"Art is not what you see but what you make others see."
-Degas

I've really got to work out this picture situation, or else no one's going to see anything!

This is the last page in my Gregg journal.

I started Gregg all the way back in 2013...

I've worked on Gregg for eight years.

Or to be more fair, I worked on Gregg, took a long hiatus, and then worked on Gregg again.

But he's finally finished.

I'll make a celebratory flip through video for him soon and talk about it more.

In regards to the quote on this, the last page of Gregg, I was thinking that Degas was right.

Art is what we make others see.

But he was also wrong in my case, because art is what made me see.

And it helped me change and grow as a person.

For me, when I make art, I am putting myself on the page.

Not every time, but a lot of the times.

If I'm happy, the things I draw will look happy.

If I'm sad, they'll look sad.

And if I'm angry...well honestly, they'll usually just look terrible...

I'm not always good at knowing how I feel, but my art is an indicator for what's going on in my mind.

I have other things that are like this too.

Cleaning for example...or more correctly, clorganizing...that's what I call cleaning and organizing.

(It's not a real word, but it should be, and I'd like credit for it please.)

I only want to clorganize when I'm feeling really upset and unsettled by something.

I think it's a way for me to feel in control of things when everything is going wrong.

I may not be able to fix the problem at hand, but I can scrub the toilet and wipe down the counter and clean out the fridge like nobody's business! 

Clorganizing is not for weak emotions, but big ones.

Most of the time, when I start to clorganize, 

I know what's wrong because it's huge and glaring and obvious.

But when I do art, I might not even know anything's wrong until I look at the page.

This sounds like maybe I'm making my own problems, but I think I've just said it badly.

Art doesn't make me make problems, it makes me recognize when there is a problem.

It makes me check myself before I wreck myself...

It lets me know that there's a small issue that I can fix before it turns into a big issue.

Art saves me from clorganizing!

And Gregg has been keeping me from clorganizing for eight long years,

so three cheers for Gregg!