thankful

"Don't give up
Or lose hope
This world is not a cold hard place
Because you are here
You have to stay
So the world can have your warmth."
-Ashlee Edens

There's a girl at my work who brings in nice soap for the bathroom.

The soap that my work buys is terrible and the dispensers only work part of the time.

And so this girl bought a bunch of Bath and Body Works soap and brings it in for us to use.

I have been asking everybody if they know who is doing it.

Norman Rockwell image...sigh...so good

I work in a huge factory and I never met this girl until today.

I was talking to a lady in the bathroom and said I wish I knew who it was that was bringing in the soap and she said she knew who it was and pointed her out to me.

I finally got to say thank you.

So cute.

And the girl said how she had been in the bathroom, more than once, when I had been trying to find out who she was...that she had overheard me saying how nice she was to do it.

She kind of laughed and said how funny it was when someone said something nice about you behind your back...that never happens.  

Then she thanked me for thanking her, because no one else really had...and because she knew how much effort I put into finding her just to thank her.

I live amongst complaining people.

It's like a culture of complaint where nothing is ever good enough.

Sometimes, I think it's easy to forget that we aren't really owed anything.

I'm not here to take the moral high ground,

I'm sure there's a lot of stuff I should be grateful for that I overlook or take for granted.

I've been laughed at for how hard I've been trying to find out who this girl is.

I didn't have to do it, but neither does she.

She spends her own money and does something no one else is doing just out of kindness.

How far is too far to go in order to recognize that kindness?

There's not a lot of kindness in the world, 

and there's even less recognition or appreciation shown for it.

I'm not asking for more gratitude, that's not my business.

But I am asking to be left alone to express mine.

It didn't cost me anything to say thank you.

It didn't impinge on anyone else for me to do it.

Yet I'm weird for trying so hard.

If that's the clincher for my weirdness, I'll take being a weirdo any day.